Posts Tagged ‘lifestyle’

Work Hard. Play Hard

Monday, August 30th, 2010

I’m laying in bed in a vegetative state of mind. I danced my legs off in three nights one after another. You know, it’s fun: communication, flirting, meeting different (sub)cultures, reading (and writing) body language. I like it that way. But it’s very easy to lose your head in a metropolis.

Whirl of Partying

On one hand, it seems that you deserved that good enriched spare time after five days working eight or more hours and pushing your limits at a computer solving different technical problems. I like my job, but as in any other job, there happen things that are too difficult, very risky or just boring and making you tired, but you still need to do that yourself. Then a weekend comes, and you having robotic head go to a semi-bar semi-club to meet friends, talk to strangers, or just dive deep into trance while listening to music. Usually one club is not enough. You get hooked and go further. The night ends up at 1 PM at a cheap food store buying yogurt and pelmeni to revitalize your body. What’s the point of that exhaust? Why do I need that hardcore? Because of all those moments that I see and experience while living such a life, which are only dreams to others. :D

On the other hand, the speed of achieving your objectives slows down because of those parties. I worked on Halma game probably just a couple of weeks per year all in all. And I would already like to start new games, and analyzing and learning new technologies. From practice I know that all wishes become true, but it takes much more time than you plan. And when you spend more than half of your weekend in a dizzy state, it seems impossible at all to achieve something personal. I have a conspiracy theory that alcohol and various illegal drugs are indirectly propagated to lower the possibilities of the masses, so that these who manage the world in the underground, would stay in their leading position. Oh. I hate politics. At least it’s good that nobody forces anyone to drink alcohol, as well as one can break the norms and traditions. I like to choose by myself when to be dizzy and when to have clear mind.

I also noticed that different places I visit associate with different drinks, because of drinking them there. For example, Club der Visionäre associates with Augustiner beer, I order gin-tonic at Bar 25 by default, I tried and liked shots of Borgmann at Salon zur wilden Renate, and I usually choose absinth with RedBull at Watergate and Berghain. It’s the culture of alcoholism, isn’t it? The drinks are drinks. Sometimes I need them, sometimes not. The most important to me here is the objective of socialization. I want to get rid of the last bits of shyness and hesitation so that I could live the rest of my life only with those limits which are not dependent on me. And I feel the progress of achieving that.

I like living like this. I just don’t wanna stuck in the whirl of partying. I should probably go clubbing just one night per week and spend the rest of my free time at home at a computer. :)

My New Eye

Wednesday, March 31st, 2010

By flipping coins I got used to asking myself even more questions. Sometimes the answers are delayed. Why should I believe in randomly given magic? And I don’t necessarily get the right answers to my questions, as they might be right only for a given moment, but wrong later in the future.

I ask myself:
“Is it possible to become famous without being rich?”
“Is it possible to become rich without being famous?”
“Is it possible to become rich staying human?”
“What is humanness?”

My new eye

Personally I am not interested in getting popular by fooling online or collecting millions using the naiveté of other people.

I tried to define some life dogmas for today, but found a much better description of the meaning of life formulated by 209:

Maximal case: create as much as possible making least negative influence for other sensitive beings and environment, and ultimately penetrate to things that are unknown yet. “Creating” means “using ultimate amount of your abilities to reach even more abilities”.

Minimal case: do what you want to do making least negative influence for other sensitive beings and environment.

And then tonight I got up after a strange dream, grabbed a pen and wrote down several objective truths in my opinion (paradox, isn’t it?):

  • All systems have multiple levels.
  • Everything is relative, but principles in small scope can be reused in large scope and vice versa.
  • Also principles of one sphere can be reused in another sphere.
  • The more power you have, the more influential you are, and vice versa.
  • The perception of power depends on values.
  • If you want to change the perception of values, you have to get enough power perceived by currently actual values.

You can decide some examples for those propositions and write down in the comments. And I will further try to combine the definition of meaning of life with these objective truths and will do something good in my life.

It’s Time!

Tuesday, January 12th, 2010

Today I purchased a tablet for drawing. By now, I’ve got all the tools I need for the beginning of game-development career. Also I have enough literature to learn from. I just need a strong kick in the ass and some time. It would be great if I could buy time like in this animation:

The moral dilemmas of the animation remind me the conversation of two rational adults:
“Do you believe in teleportation?”
“Think logically! Would you invest your own money in it?”
“Not my own! But wouldn’t you find a crowd of stupids who would do that?”

It’s the same with time. There are many levels of information to discuss, from individuals to statistics and back to individuals.

Indirectly speaking, you can buy time.. at the expense of other people’s time. You just need to establish a company, hire employees, and do business. By buying other people’s time, you can save your own time benefiting yourself.

Is it bad?

It is bad if you don’t provide sufficient working conditions, psycologically terrorize and frighten your employees, smother the wish to improve and make one’s career, or even overuse people till death. But it is good if your own purposes are such that they help you as well as a lot of other people. It’s good if you choose such human resources (employees) whose purposes will go on the same way as yours and whom you’ll accept as companions. It’s good if you provide possibilities to learn more and to use the received knowledge for the common purpose (even in a competitive company).

So getting back personally to me, I like my job (to create the web), but I am lack of time for going towards my chosen purpose which is to become a game developer famous for games which influence the awareness of society. I keep telling to everybody that time is just as it is and having no time means nothing else than wrongly chosen priorities. Therefore, I think, it’s time for me to rearrange my priorities so that I could spend at least 8 hours per week practicing game development and blogging about that. I am about to define the purposes for myself to achieve in twenty-ten.

Experiences of Contemporary Art

Sunday, October 18th, 2009

Last weekend I was in Berlin National Gallery with Judita and Viktoras to check out what’s happening there. And we found the photography exhibition of Thomas Demand there.

Judita, Viktoras, and I

After waiting in the row, we got the tickets, got in, and started exploring. There were mostly daily-life scenes without people, so to say, still life. That seemed to be nothing special. Sometimes I didn’t even like the composition. But there was something what didn’t look natural. The photos looked cleaned very much without any noise. The contrasts were large. Probably he did all that cleanness with a lot of photoshopping. Some photos even looked like modeled 3D views. This is how we watched half of the exposition.

Thomas Demand

Then we read the description of the exhibition at the flyer that we had received with the tickets. It said that all those compositions were made out of paper. No! That can’t be! The cloakroom of a sports hall, a corner in an Asian restaurant, windows with convolvulus all around supposed to be made out of paper.. But when you look closer you really notice that. This glass was made out of plastic, that broom was made out of cardboard, and so on.. Cool! We started watching the exposition from the beginning again.

Thomas Demand

Probably many students were involved in making those models. Or, as Milda says, it was all made by the hands of little children :D

Thomas Demand

This is how contemporary art can surprise you. It’s just important to get to know the conception.

Sincere Naiveness vs. Problematic Perfectionism

Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009

I almost learned beeing alone as comfortable as with friends. I don’t create connections with people whose faults look to me bigger that their merits. I never take the first step unless I am sure that I’ll get what I want. I never start a conversation if that’s not necessary. I accept either nothing, or everything, but no failures! I am still deep into my psychological sh*t. I am afraid to look weak or a loser.

Yesterday I was counting airplanes and satellites in Club der Visionäre when I got hungry and decided to buy a pizza. I started eating it with beer and saw a girl sitting in front who turned to me when she smelled the food and felt hunger. She suggested her friends to order a pizza too, but they refused to do that. I could share mine, because it would be enough for me. But I was too shy to start talking to her. Neither my German, nor English is perfect. But I was sure, she would really like the offer. “If she turns to me once again until I count to 60, I will suggest her a piece”, I thought. One, two, three… Twenty four… She stood up, turned to me and looked for a second. Should I be a bourgeois or a socialist? She was about to leave with her friends. Should I offer her a piece of pizza!? She was moving away. I didn’t suggest it… FAIL! I stayed a bourgeois. The one who had a solid meal doesn’t care about the hungry one.

I remembered the words of a 40-year-old fellow passenger in a train going from Klaipėda to Vilnius:

No matter how much you achieve in your life, the most important thing is not to get puffed and stay sincere.

Maybe someday…

Tricksy Adventure

Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009

This story has been told close friends for hundreds of times. But if you haven’t heard that yet, then listen!

Dovilas wrote me in Facebook that they give free food and drinks at the center of Hessen in Berlin, to commemorate the Independence of Lithuania. So I decided to go there, to have some Lithuanian conversations and fortify myself with non-junk food. He wrote me the address. I looked at the Google Maps where the place was located. And then I went there after work.

While going through security guys, I thought: “I see a lot of people inside. The party should be here”. I passed a hall full of seats where a conference or something had just finished. There were many journalists around with microphones and cam recorders. Further on I reached plenty of sedate-looking people standing at tables. They picked food and drinks from a buffet, went back to their tables, and had a bite.. But I couldn’t find any Lithuanians. Ehm.. Then I texted Dovilas asking where he was. While waiting for the answer, I took a plate of mutton soup to fill up my rumbling stomach. It was exactly what I needed. But somehow I didn’t feel comfortably. Everybody was suited and solid whereas I wore jeans and a hoodie. I was eating the soup, all the time searching for other Lithuanians and trying to avoid confrontations with security guys. Dovilas replied: “I am standing at the entrance and drinking wine”. But I was sure, he wasn’t there. Later we clarified I was in a different party. Lithuanians gathered on another side of the street.

Thanks to google maps that their search results by addresses are shown in the middle of a street instead of above houses.

Spare time differently

Monday, January 5th, 2009

I’ve been a victim of a trend for the whole week in Vilnius. That was a trend that I like and which tends to be a unique phenomenon. I am talking about games in bars, clubs, and at friends.

I faced that for the first time two years ago in the “Baltic Sound” festival in a tent of the Play club, where a company of dizzy strangers laid pieces of Jenga; as well as on the second day of the wedding of Vika and Julius, where we played Twister, Monopoly, Alias, and some other games instead of old-fashioned alcoholism.

Last week I formed definitions in the “Funky Monkey” club (Alias), built towers in the “Play” club (Jenga), raised beans at Rimas (Bonanza), eat fish sushi (Sushizock im Gockelwok) and built districts (Citadels) at Julius. Every second bar or club offered table football which I don’t like personally, but I support its idea. And the old men pretending artists were playing checkmate at the CAC cafe.

Board games in public spaces are a cool way to start communication with strangers, keep relationship with friends and also that’s a perfect alternative to social alcoholism. We’ll see what games are waiting for me today. Are you playing something today too?

Wii have fun

Monday, December 22nd, 2008

This year we celebrated studio X-mas in the studio with our own home-made food and playing Nintendo Wii games in front of a projected screen. That was my first longer experience at Wii console in spite of Games Convention last year.

Wii controller

The eyes of the adults were twinkling as much as of their kids. My eyes would twinkle too if I hadn’t been tired after my deadline and a night of baking kūčiukai. :D So I glanced at everything critically evaluating both, advantages and disadvantages.

Nintendo Wii is played by a distant controller with motion detection, vibration, and a speaker inside. Some games require an additional attachable smaller controller. Before beginning a new game, instructions are usually shown in the screen how to play (unless the controlling is absolutely intuitive, i.e. boxing into the air). Usually, you have to imitate real-life actions, for example, if you play tennis, you wave the controller as if it was a racket. Up to four people can play at once.

During the party, we played three different games. They were “Rayman: Raving Rabbids 2“, “Wii Sports“, and “Mario Kart“. We had fun and it looked funny taking a detached view, when adult people were swinging hands, jumping, and performing in front of a screen. I’d say, that Wii games are perspective for parties. But also a lot depends on the games themselves. For example, racing game “Mario Kart” seemed to me oriented to small kids and didn’t rule to me as much as to some colleagues. “Wii Sports” was put in a boring shape, although everyone could create a personalized avatar. All avatars were like plastic characters from some toy building bricks with American strained smiles.

Rayman Raving Rabbids 2” was the best for parties, in my opinion. It contained much humorous animation and hooligan tasks. You had to choose a rabbit in the beginning which you will play with and do different things in different levels. They say, there are 50 minigames. For example, you have to phone to each other in the cinema while a supervisor doesn’t see you. The players raise the controllers up and listen to some humbling, until the lights go on in the hall. Then they let them down and write text messages quickly pressing the main button [A] in the controller. Another level gives you another task. You have to shake a bottle of aerated drink (shake a controller), pop it up (press [A]), and pour it into your mouth. After that the rabbit gives such a belch, that the stream of air not only throws nearby standing pigeons, but also messes half of the city. The rabbit which makes most harm wins. It’s very funny when solid and polite people temporarily being rabbits belch.

Wii-game parties at work are probably the only way to give vent to your anger on your bosses so that everyone stays happy. :D To play with your friends is also funny. It’s only important to choose the right games.

Sunday Celebration: Brick Exchange Program

Sunday, December 21st, 2008

Soon I have to go to an air port, so I am writing in a hurry.. I offer you two different games based on the same engine for this Sunday. They are “HDOS Databank request 01” and “3 Minutes on the Beach“.

HDOS

The gameplay follows. There is a pile of bricks in the screen. You have to point a target to two of the bricks which you want to exchange and the you click. The row of column of three or more bricks of the same color will disappear. The ones that were above will fall down.

HDOS Databank request 01” is a game of progression, consisting of 35 levels where for each of them you have to terminate all bricks in a limited number of exchanges. These are good puzzles.

3 Minutes on the Beach” is a game of emergence, where you have to terminate as many bricks as possible in a limited time. That’s a relaxing clicking around.

I like the HDOS case more, because it’s presented with a story and humor. You have to break 35 security layers in order to access a secret file of the government. :cool: The messages after each level are cool. And I like puzzles since my childhood when I bought every release of puzzle magazine called “AHA” (I am not sure whether it still exists).

And the beach crashes my browser today for some reason (therefore I haven’t taken a screenshot of it). Maybe the 9.0 r115 version of Flash plugin is unstable?

So try them and tell which one you liked more, and I am going out now.

Sunday Celebration: a Crow in Hell

Sunday, December 14th, 2008

We all feel like in hell in the face of crisis. Let’s learn how to get out of water dry. Let’s move the stress of life to the stress of playing a game before the beginning of the new week, new decisions, and the new bunch of optimism. This weekend I offer you a game where a shot raven flies in the dungeons of hell trying to get out back to life and take its revenge on the offender. That’s “A Crow in Hell”.

A Crow in Hell

The gameplay kinda combines another two good games: the flash-based NoName Game where you have to move a dot throughout a maze without touching any walls, and Ecco the Dolphin on Sega where the avatar controlled by the arrow-buttons has its momentum and acceleration. The player of “A Crow in Hell” has to use arrow keys to fly throughout a labyrinth separated by screens, and collect keys, but touch no other objects. Even when the progress of the game is saved into a browser cookie every two screens, it seems silly that the crow can’t alight on a bench, stairs, or other safe objects.

The hell of the last week was kind of painted. This one is graphic and two-colored. The details are done very precisely and nicely, but the crow itself reminds me a buzzard more than a crow from its face. If I didn’t hear the cawing from time to time in a tragic background music, I wouldn’t believe that I am flying as a raven. The area of the game is of 650 pixel height, so if you want to play it in the resolution of 1024×768, you have to hide all browser bars, go to the full-screen mode (by pressing [F11]), or play in a popup window.

Games of progression like this one usually don’t attract you when they’re completed once, unless the player is offered different branches of scenario or levels, or if the player is motivated by competing against other players. Until the end of October the players of “A Crow in Hell” were offered to compete against each other who would fly throughout the whole hell fastest. The winner got a T-shirt with the branding of the game (I’d actually like to have one).

The game is quite difficult. I completed just a little further than the screen in the illustration. Anyway, it’s fun, that I can continue from where I finished and I don’t have to start from the beginning all the time. I suggest you to try it!